Last night I made a new cocktail. I like trying mixing different spirits together. I got this out of a book but Im not so sure I'll make it again. It was called a Port Refresher. Basically you mix port with Cointreau, icing sugar & ice, shake & strain. I skipped the trimmings.
It was ok, very sweet but really it was a waste of a good 12yo port! From now on I'm keeping that port to drink on it's own. It's way too nice to be mixed.

Still, a good way to relax after a stressful day.
Do you have a favourite cocktail?

Being the NY, Xmas is now old news but I have some catching up to do. Xmas 08 was far from normal (whatever that is!) at our place. We never got our break away. The mrs ended up in hosp, operated on before the 25th Dec, home in time for the NY.

I haven't been online as I've been flat out trying to look out for her & the kids, plus working interstate Xmas eve. Its been a very busy!
I took the kids to the NY's eve fireworks (early session) & also the kid's movie "Bolt" which I enjoyed as much as them. *wink*
These good times have been a little over-shadowed by their mum being home in bed, recovering. I'm still not really wanting to know all about that. I want her well but am not asking for details, just taking those she offers. The denial's been working well for me anyway.

I've tried so hard to 'be good' & 'do the right thing'. I've been doing lots of dad & hubby stuff; looking after the mrs at home, feeding, shopping & running around after the kids, but it recently got to the point where it all became too much for me. I'm kinda there now.

Playing with Fire is an apt name for my blog, for my actions. I wish I could realise Im sinking before I do but that seems outside my ability or thought processes. Recently, when my mum was helping mind the kids, I took off. I thought it was just for air & space, some peace & quiet. 2 of the kids were fighting, bickering, wanting me to take sides & I'd had enough! It set off something bigger in me & I needed out!

My short unplanned walk turned into at 2-3 days gone, maybe more. Im still not sure how long I was gone exactly but know the longer I stayed away the harder it was to go back.
Im home now only to find the mrs organised some kind of intervention. Great, love! Thanks for that! Argh!
I thought I'd been doing ok all considered. I know it's been difficult on everyone lately. Still, I dont believe one mistake should lead to such over reaction. We all process things in our own way & it's not like I left the kids without supervision.
I get the impression the mrs currently is thinking the worst of me, of what I got up to when away. I know I don't always make good decisions but... heck. It's my life too right?

Apart from this major hiccup I reckon Ive been doing well. Dealing with heavy stuff but hanging in there (ok, til v recently). The depression hasn't been too bad & well, I kinda felt normal if worn out doing all the extra dad duties.
I can only wonder what the mrs has planned for me now. Awaiting judgement atm - waiting to see if Im to be banished or fed to the lions or (one can hope) forgiven for being a lot less than perfect.